Into The Dark

Let me introduce myself. I’m Tatiana von Tauber and I’ve been going through an identity crisis. It began shortly after I started college and it’s taken me about a year of searching, analyzing and dealing with some of the changes that have taken place in my personal identity department to find what I’ve been looking for. It hasn’t been a Bloomingdales experience! However, I finally reached the top floor and I’ve come to understand a different side to the “adventures of an erotic mind”.

It was probably my search for a voice that really caused the whole problem. We all have a unique voice. I wonder, however, what happens to a voice when the individual is merely a part of the “they”, the social network caught up in his daily grind? Finding a voice is a social rebellion. My life has been predominantly led by social acceptance. This, of course, came with an “autonomous” desire to follow the rules, be kind, use my manners, hold my silverware correctly, be respectful to elders and be “a nice girl”. The latter can apply to several areas but I won’t reveal more on that. Girl’s gotta keep a little mystery going.

I learned I actually have a “dark side” to my erotic mind but I also have one to my rational mind. We all have a dark side. Think of all your bad, almost uncontrollable states of mind when you react to situations, when you’re fired up or feeling rebellious and the thoughts that go through your mind. My mental dark side is politically incorrect. This is the side I control because I run the risk of becoming an “Independent-Party” Ann Coulter. However, even in my politically incorrect statements I wouldn’t call a Republican brainless. Egocentric maybe, but not brainless. In fact, in a way Coulter's right. It takes brains to figure out a way to have your voice heard in order that it makes a greater impact than the “rest”. The Conservatives know this well.

Unfortunately, political correctness puts everyone into the same grouping: fear to speak one’s mind. This acceptance to treat everyone’s feelings “equally” is failing because it suppresses individualism and freedom of speech. Our diversity is what should be embraced, not attacked. Political correctness creates a false sense of politeness, of care about the other and that’s just plain superficial! In reality, the backlash is such that if you’re politically correct for one, eventually you’ll have to be politically correct for all. It’s masked as a golden step to equality but really, it births conformity and fear, suppressing the voice to take control, to speak up, to be heard - to disagree. The absurdity is that the diversity of our planet doesn’t have room for such “equality” and it’ll eventually ignite rebellion; the voice within desires to be free.

By submitting to politically correct standards, the individual voice has submitted to the masses, to those who control the masses. The individual looses his ability to be free. He looses his freedom of speech. But what are we without speech? If your freedom to speak your mind was taken away tomorrow – forced upon you, what would you do? Would you fight back?

My generation has seen plenty of “walls” break down oppression: Russia, Germany, and Czechoslovakia, my birthplace. These were great testaments to the will of man and his fight for freedom. Do these wills of strength still exist or has political correctness taken over? Whose voice is important? Whose voice has precedence, if any? More importantly, whose voice will be listened to which will make an impact on social norms, laws and moralities? Whose voice will change the world? That will be something interesting to see the outcome of. We already know that George W. Bush has taken that podium but his changes further segregate what was already segregated, glued together by political correctness. I'm more interested in the likes of those who partake in efforts of goodness.

And so begins my journey into the political incorrectness that creates the Absurdity in which we live. It is the voice of the dark side but it’s the only side of my mind I haven’t explored. My new adventures into the erotic mind don’t delve into how to give a better blowjob than your girlfriend. My respected colleague, Tara Tainton can enlighten you in that department. My department involves finding the alleyways, nooks and crannies that can provoke change in the world, not the bedroom. The bedroom, however, is a fantastic starting place.

Feminism is loosing its ground. The young generation, I fear, is in the midst of loosing
themselves to the manipulation of the mass media, dominated by sexuality, disrespect and self-worthlessness, selling oneself for 15 minutes of fame. There is nothing wrong with presenting sex into the mainstream but if you're gonna do it, you need to do it right. You need to be rational, sensible, intelligent, led by the faculty of reason of how the message in sake of entertainment or profit might affect a generation. Each generation survives but it is through the help of the older, "wiser" ones - the previous generation - who makes the steps to initiate a change. There is absolutely no way any equality between the genders can occur unless the innuendo of feminism change or the next generation will loose the freedom their ancestors fought for. This is really a kind of humanism. I can't let that happen. I cannot in any good conscience allow my children to loose their rights to their body, their mind or their freedom. These are the given rights to every individual who exists, male or female. Attacking that is attacking the very core of our nature and any meaning of importance we place upon ourselves. Attacking this creates the kind of War I am willing to battle!

I realized that if I’m going to do anything at all as an erotic artist on these “adventures of an erotic mind”, it’d be wiser for me to use the only voice that’s really heard these days: the loud and clear politically incorrect one. How else can an individual make any kind of a difference if he can’t yell loud enough to be heard? Hurt ‘em with guns? We’ve seen the results of that. I think words and erotic art are much more powerful message mediums. I learned that from Leonard Shlain, author of Sex, Time and Power, The Alphabet versus the Goddess and Art and Physics. His voice empowered me and now I’m taking the steps to empower others. You may or may not like the “dark side” of Tatiana von Tauber but I dare you to find out.

Political Correctness is oppression. I refuse that to be the future for my children. Being passive about the future is a slap in the face to all those who fought for freedom and liberty before me.

Let’s not bury their efforts.

Think and be free.

Namaste,
Tatiana von Tauber
www.vontauber.com